Quiet
I spent the night at Machu Picchu. Traveling with my
parents, sisters and mother’s parents, we were an unwieldy party of seven when we
boarded ourselves and our luggage onto an ancient train with thread-bare seats.
Women sold steaming ears of pale yellow corn wrapped in newspaper. Mom
purchased some for herself and her mother through an open window on the train.
As I remember it, Mom and Gunkey (my grandmother’s unlikely family name) seemed
to scoff at conventional wisdom about the relative danger of eating corn from
grubby sheets of cast-off Peruvian newspaper. I thought Mom and Gunkey were
such badasses. I seem to remember that I got a bite, hoping perhaps to be a
badass by association.
We chugged and rumbled and rattled along in the train, kept
company by dozens of people – some local, some assuredly not. It was a raucous
atmosphere with lots of talking, correction at top volume of playful but unruly
children and laughter.
Already mountainous when we started the trip, the landscape
at the last stop was positively precipitous. We scrambled from the train to a waiting
bus – one that seemed to me to be pretty modern, next to the dismal train and
its billowing, sooty smoke. The bus driver seemed even to me impossibly young –
hardly much more than my 14 years. The ride up the side of the mountain was
interminable and terrifying. I didn’t know a vehicle that big could bend itself
in half and make turns that sharp. At break-neck speed. With a child at the
wheel.
When we emerged from the bus we found ourselves in the
parking lot of what appeared to be a very humble, early 20th-Century
structure. A porch spanned the whole front of the two-story building --
festooned with strings of lights and outfitted with tables and chairs. My
sisters and I shared a room with twin beds and a cot, Mom and Dad had another
and my grandparents a third – all on the second floor. For our party, there
seemed just to be one bathroom and a hallway sink. A pair of American students
were making do with cots set up between bedroom doors down one side of the
hallway.
We had stepped back in time. But not to the days of the
Ancients. We were squarely situated in the 1920’s. There were gin and tonics
and Fanta Naranja on the porch over friendly conversation. Dinner was served
family-style and featured something unremarkable, like a stew. Mom, Dad, Pa and Gunkey played bridge under
the yellow glow of those string lights while others read, played rummy or
talked. The lights – indeed all the electricity – went off at about 10:30. And
it was quiet. Deeply quiet. Quiet in a way that you don’t find in many places.
The next day, after breakfast, we walked up the hill to the
base of the ruins. A storybook mist hung over the walls and collected in the
open spaces. The carefully excavated ruins revealed acres of stone walls. Each
stone still round, still robust even after millennia of weather and relative
neglect. Some of the rooms were still largely intact with openings for windows.
It was clearly abandoned, but it seemed so complete, so alive.
We moved quietly through the site, as though we were
trespassing, as though we feared coming upon a resident. Or, that the resident
might stumble upon us – uninvited guests. In fact, we did stumble upon a herd
of llamas that inhabited Machu Picchu. My little sister paused in a crumbling
doorway to peer at a baby llama and was nearly trampled (but for my badass Mom)
by its protective Mama Llama.
But even with the drama of the trip, the time warp of our
landing spot on that dark but convivial night; and even with the near-trauma of
the clash of the babies -- llama to human, what I will remember most is the
quiet. That all-encompassing, deep-down-in-your-bones quiet. The kind of quiet
that doesn’t just imprint the imperfect memory of a 14-yr-old girl. But the
kind of quiet that spans the millennia. The kind of quiet that transcends and
mutes humanity’s incessant, ageless, ubiquitous noise. It seems funny to me
that having experienced that kind of quiet, I’d have forgotten it. That it
would take me another 40 years to recollect my first memory of that silken
quiet and to remember its comfort. It also seems far-fetched to worry that this
kind of quiet might reside only in the Andes.
My pledge with the recollection of this and other memories
is to summon and garner the lessons missed and the images lost to the more
dramatic impact of either natural or man-made monuments. And perhaps I just
wasn’t old enough at 14 to be aware of the value – the necessity – of quiet.
Perhaps that particular lesson got folded into and lost with the many other
experiences and lessons to which I was exposed when my family traveled. But
whatever the reason I missed them the first time around, I’m coming back
through and gleaning the rest.
As for Machu Picchu, I’ll remember the minutiae – the students
in the hallway, the orange soda on the porch while the adults played bridge.
And the mist. The clinging, cool mist that protected the ruins and then parted
to reveal some of its secrets. The comradery of sharing that lonely space. The
drama of two maternal creatures – one human, one llama – protecting their
babies. These memories might not constitute the still-round, still-robust
stones perfectly united in a largely unwavering wall. Instead, these moments,
these memories will honor and help me explore the life that still clung to the
walls and moved through the spaces and murmured softly as the mists dissipated
and the quiet descended as though a warm, enveloping blanket.
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